kaj

oh, baby kaj. you take my breath away. my sweet boy. quite honestly, even in the days before you were born, i worried i might not love you enough. a boy? i still wondered if the ultrasound was wrong and you might be a girl. "oh!" the midwife would say after you came out, "it's a girl!" we would laugh and have to think of a name...but then YOU arrived. a fresh little bundle. a new baby. my boy. i couldn't stop staring at you and holding you. i still can't stop. i was so instantly in love with you. tiny (well, 9.48, but still tiny) and warm and watching us. laying on my chest we just stared at each other. what an amazing journey you took us on.

i absolutely adore you and all your baby sweetness. you are such a good baby. you sleep well, you eat well, you tolerate hands-on love from wren and her crew, and you rarely fuss. you are starting to smile and gurgle and coo and it just melts us. you have been with us for six weeks. six weeks ago today, about an hour ago. but i think you have been with us forever. seems like eternity. you instantly became a part of us. and now we are four.